Life goes on..

this week, i have been so depressed.

alot was going on my mind, like i was gonna explode just thinking of those things.. thinking to outgrown the feelings, i denied everything that i feel.. i push myself. i push away everyone around me. i'm stuborn. i dont listen.. i dont talk. i laugh and i feel like someone else was laughing for me. i smile, but i know i cant see myself smiling. i never cry. no tears, no perfect sadness.

i shut myself from reality, thinking i can kill these thoughts or maybe the feelings. i am hurt. i got hurt. i am broken. im closed...